Bad Day
what i just enjoyed today..
life is coming out of me
life isnt all about fun it is about being serious..
and being fun at all times makes me labelled as irritating
fine lets all be serious then
impressing people..
my mom the class people, sec 1
told my mom that suad leader was an impressive post..
she heard me begging people to go chalet..
and she had the idea sl= beggers
then i told her i was going sentosa to do something
she didnt believe me
and today she turned up during chalet meeting
im not going to come up with some excuse that she forgot the house key la, forgot to kis me goodbye la..
nope she came to check on it.. im not proud of it but if i lied, it would be a form of impressing ppl which i am currently very sick of
yep she doesnt trust me end of sentence
then today had a quarrel,not jenise fault jus that every body was totally sick of planning
with matt leaving us, with the many disagreements,i tried to cherr the committee up
i tried they said i was a nuisiance
jus asimple chalet my pri schl mates could plan easliy in 3 hours meetings with out even raisng voice and we had to even thrash it out, bang table
i dun want to cheer ppl up
animore i wan ppl to cheer me up
i learnt that it is not about ebing funny ut is about being serious,get on with life, live it through once, and suffer in hell
im not the lame,always laughing,smiling when i feel insulted,saying sorry when i should hear it not say it
u all changed me i guess.. so enjoy me
i jus need to get away from every thing for jus a while and the hols seem great..
the chalet i was looking forward to was cancelled the amazing race that was organised was negelected
i m feeling like deleting this and go to school tomoro as usual, with the same me
but should i? its not zhangxiixii anmore
its lamentatiions
dun ask what happened
ask what didnt happen